(Found this in the draft; decided to post. This was honest and raw written during one of my most vulnerable state. I can only laugh now haha I dont know her anymore, I guess I'm wiser now)
You were kind. And you made me feel like you actually cared. Like how you’d walk me to my car when you clearly park in different level. Like how you’d tell me to be careful driving back home when it’s raining. Like how you’d make sure I’ve had my lunch. And I like how you were so honest that it felt like we’ve known each other forever. You made me feel comfortable yet you made my heart races all the same. And how your eyes shine when you talk about your work. You are so passionate. So sure. Yet never of me.
Why, I thought. Was it me? I then stopped blaming myself. Was it you? I then stopped making sense of this. It wasn’t meant to be and I don’t need answers. Not anymore. Not ever.
I believe I have moved on. My heart no longer ache hearing your name. And I no longer care. You were so full of shit but I no longer hold grudges against you.
This is my closure. For whatever you did or you did not do, it’s over.
I was reading the novel TATBIHLB and I guess I should write one for you too; a goodbye letter for you.
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