tahu . sedar . istiqamah . #AURAT

and eventhough everyone seems very busy talking about the first exam .
perihal usaha , perihal tawakkal , perihal redha .
no . i'm not gonna talk about it .
isi hati ini , sedihnya dia , sukanya dia , ALLAH knows .
just so you know  betapa sweetnya Allah bila setiap kali hati ini sedih , He shows me his ayat from Quran Kareem in soo many different ways smpailah aku mampu tersenyum . 
ALHAMDULILLAH .

so back to the topic ,
those three different words .
tahu , sedar dan istiqamah .

mungkin selama ni mmg aku tahu bahawa aurat itu ialah sesuatu yg memalukan dan perlu disembunyikan dari pandangan ajnabi .

tahu . cukup smpai di situ .

tapi mungkin baru sekarang baru aku sedar bahawa aurat itu memalukan dan membungkus aurat itu tidak langsung bertepatan dgn syariat Islam .

dan sedar sahaja tanpa istiqamah ialah sia-sia .

dan sesungguhnya the hardest part of them all is istiqamah .

what i learn here is , solat je la with what u are wearing .

kenapa nk sarung telekung kalau dah mmg tutup aurat ?

coz , watching the arabs who prefers wearing tight jeans suddenly sarung kain to perform prayer really makes me wonder and wonder .
if your aurat is properly and perfectly covered , why bother sarung kain telekung pulak ?

and thats the ultimate reason why i prefer wearing baju kurung or jubah or long skirt to JUST .

sadly ,  the feeling of tired and bored ada .

:(

the feeling of tgk org lain and wonder ta penat ke hari2 nk pakai kain ?
ta penat ke taleh pakai seluar ?

the worst part is bila the time of the month tiba , aku use it as an advantage to wear seluar like i used to .
rasa macam , aku ta fake or being hypocrite sbb aku ta solat .
ok fine , mungkin ta sedahsyat dulu or even seketat dulu .
but stil alia amirah ! what kind of loser are you ?!

and aku rasa berdosaaa gilaaa .

kenapa perlu aku penat buat baik ? 

bila kau nak buat , kau buat .
bila kau taknak , kau ta buat .
:(

rasa macam kau nak grab His love , tapi kau takleh nk korbankan everything .
what kind of lover is that ?

hipokrit . memang identity crisis betul lah aku ni . HAHA :P

yes , i do understand of mana datangnya keikhlasan tanpa keterpaksaan .
tapi sememangnya keikhlasan dalam keterpaksaan itu payah .
and
i just hope and keep praying that the feeling of kemanisan iman itu akan tiba
in a right time in a right way
insyaAllah